Thought Disorder

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

I can practically smell my Chinese paper in the distance now. It's like tomorrow..and my memory's only half-filled with some ideas.

More than half of me is in fear and the other is in sheer excitement.

5:46 PM

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Last day of TLL. The past few years had been enjoyable for me and I love going for lessons every week learning so much about a subject I'm passionate about. I'm so hell ironic I really enjoy Singapore's unorthodox and unofficial national hobby please laugh at me. Really, I'll feel so weird without my weekends devoured by tuitions. And then off to Malaysia for a little while. I saw the Dunkin' Donuts stall and got really excited and started running towards it. When I got in the shelves were empty. I feel extremely moronic. Mmm I'm gonna get a box of donuts every week after the O's on Wednesday and camp in front of the screen, watching videos/DVDs. Oh and I'm going to M'sia to have a haircut when my hair gets longer because the hair salons there look super professional and cool with rather affordable prices. Srsly! On another note, I do hope to get sakae on Thursday, if I do get my allowance at all.

Pictures from today and yesterday.

10:37 PM

Oh great I just finished watching Hana Kimi Jp and it's all good although I took like 2 weeks to finish 12 short episodes. Hawh I think the Jp version is much better than the Taiwanese version even if there are many impractical stuff happening during the show. Many eye-candies in the foreground and the background. Can die for. They have abfab hairstyles, srsly.

Hmph I regret giving up learning Japanese.

So anyway, today was quite wonderful. :D Sat at taka from 2+ pm to 7+ pm just talking to Cindy, Yiusum and Jiahui about Shicheng, about life, about schools. And then we headed over to fep and made/forced Cindy to go try a purple dress hahaha funny hahaha funny hahaha funny. Catching up just like that makes the day momentous.

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Sometimes I'm glad there's always somebody to talk to me about things that I've buried in my heart for the longest time, things that I'm afraid to say in fear of offending someone, things that always take me on roundabouts and I don't get the answers. There are always some dark sides that are intimidating, and I'm still learning how to embrace those areas thinking, you're good in your own special way.

1:05 AM

Friday, October 26, 2007

Oh my god why are GUYS SO IDIOTIC?!?!?! I REALLY NEED TO SLAP SOMEONE NOW!!!!!!!!!!

12:59 AM

Hello it's a school-declared holiday tomorrow so I'm feeling rather up now, although the entire day was rather le suckzs. I looked at some facts of life and the entire process felt like a tight slap on my face. Loud, yet silent. Ouch.

Since it's a holiday tomorrow, it's a must to sleep in till the sun filters in to blind my dreams. I gotta recover my loss of sleep for the past few days/weeks/months/years. And after that I shall mug for O's because I'm aware that I suck at zonghetiancong + explaining the meaning of the phrase questions? It's srsly time to store some chengyus into my already rusty brain.

Oh have you just realised that life is unfair? There are so many exemplary illustrations present all around us like sometimes it's so fun to think about it and laugh it off in order to turn things around. Sadly things still remain status quo even after thinking so thoughts are actually one of the safest medium. Later you'll realise that you're feeling a tad melancholic, a tad like Hamlet, somehow wondering how do the clocks and machineries operate within us. No?

As much as I would really want to have a picnic of sort, I can't force myself to really bow to life because I'm controlling it and it seems like I'm its sucker now. I hate.

(ps. Daughtry really makes my day, a whole lot)

12:12 AM

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

It's a mere 1 week to O's, a mere 10 days to highly anticipated holidays, a mere 10 days to the splitting of 4G.

I don't feel depressed over the latter.
I feel scared and nervous for the former.

"I'm not going, because."
I hate the word "exclude". Is that subtle or not.

Srsly this is not a good medium for bitching.

So I'm evacuating.

11:11 PM

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Today was a hot and sweaty Xperience.

I only get 4 CIP hours? I kid. But srsly. In exchange for a colossal waste of energy and a whole lot of time basking in the sun doing nothing at all.

I got so tired in the end.

Queer.

I sailed through tuition hazily and actually agreed to perform for Dec 2's concert in a matter of one sentence of persuasion omg please shoot me now (!!!)

And there's school tomorrow, albeit how much I whine and grunt. Factual. Did I mention that I hate school what's the point of going now why is there school when I can't exactly absorb anything. I don't really know how I'm going to cope studying for Chinese in this short period of time. The actual liberation day is Oct 31st, people.

Lastly, Singapore is gonna embark on O's tomorrow and I hope everyone out there gives it their bestestest shot alright :D

I'm so methodical today.

10:52 PM

Friday, October 19, 2007

In hindsight, I've come to a conclusion that I haven't been utilising my time properly and I haven't really started materialising my post exam ideas. I've been living a life so meaningless and secluded that I'm starting to think that there's something wrong with me. I need a far getaway from this island, this life.

Sometimes, people land up at the bottom of the life curve, and they don't really know what's going on, or what's going to happen next. Things look gloomy and unfortunate. Sunny days seem to take forever to come. I'm seemingly sinking to the bottom of this curve. The waves aren't pushing me up. Not at all.

Questions in my head. Like pencil markings, they leave scars. I hate the word 'exclude'. You?

11:59 PM

Like, I'm so frustrated after 3 days of trying to solve the cube. I mean Peijean already taught me how to but I can't accomplish it myself. Brain juice. Solutions. Help.

Anyway life is le sucksz now because the 10 day O level crash course has begun last Sunday and I'm desperately striving to keep myself awake during the two-hour-long nights everyday. I've been ditching my dramas (Well, I'm watching Hana Kimi Japanese version) and practically dying in school everyday. Decomposing or dealing with boring lessons. And there seems to be little/no company around and it's always the shadows that are looking at me. And I look at them, feeling uneasy.

If you tell me this is teenage life, I'm going to accept it.

6:13 PM

Saturday, October 13, 2007

I need a job,

and I've applied for Delifrance's,

and my dad's friend says that she has jobs for me that are higher paying.

So I assume that I'll get my Stussy Dunks soon? I'm gonna work hard.

Anyway I completed another series but this one ain't that good as the rest. I'm gonna wait for the full series of 樱野三加一 to come out to start watching. In the meantime, I've 14 dramas on my watchlist to complete so hyeh :D

Uhm, did anyone realise that we have HCL O's very very soon like I'm nowhere near revising for it. I was supposed to go mug HCL after completing the series today but I ended up procastinating (I'm napping soon luh!).

I don't care(:

6:01 PM

Thursday, October 11, 2007

I PASSED PHYSICS LIKE HUH, OMG?

Haha and realisation of the day: Tao Kae Noi is like the best snack on Earth.

And I srsly hate it when people come up to me (I don't care if it's a joke or what) and demand a present like ugh.

6:19 PM

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Happy facts:
-I baked chocolate fudge brownie today and it's like super nice :D Who wants a slice!
-I had Ajisen Ramen for two days in a row and it's like the best food on earth, I swear ;D
-I witnessed Feltay getting new Onitsuka Tiger shoes
-I ditched my Chinese papers for DVDs (I'm like watching a new show, but I don't care luh)
-I'm still watching DVDs, hawh.

11:23 PM

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Yaye I'm like super tired now from all the video watching. I completed one series so all's good and I'm happy slacking while the rest of Singapore are busy mugging :D Hawh evil.

I swear I'm gonna sleep at 10pm tonight. My entire head is so heavy and dizzy.

And my mum's like, go study for your O levels, don't everyday watch dvds. Which quite pissed me off but anyhow I managed to coop myself in my room to finish the series today. ;D

I'm sososo tired now ):

COME BACK SOON!

9:18 PM

Friday, October 05, 2007

So China was still okay afterall, and CB was formed.

Haimen
(Some may not be in chronological order)

We arrived at approximately 6.30pm at the school and the sky was already so dark it felt like 9pm in Singapore? Anyway they came to us as a surprise 'cause they had a red carpet laid out and a symphonic band ready so when we got down the bus we were like, ohmygod? It was so weird but cool :D

And we all went home with our buddies. My buddy's house was nice, modern, big, comfortable. Like appearances are really deceiving 'cause the house looked damn unappealing from the outside.

I had an entire room all to myself! There was a balcony with a sink and washing machine for me to do laundry too. Coolios. The thing was that I'd to survive without fan/aircon throughout the night but I came to accept it anyway.

My buddy shares the same interests as I do so all's cool(:

The next day we had some welcome ceremony thing which was rather, um unflattering?

Went to some really zzz companies after that.

First favourite hobby in China: TAKING CANDID PHOTOS OF CINDY WANGWANG.

We had PE lessons

June the taugua and Xinhui!

The winding corridors of the school.

And Bio lessons. Uhm like examining the smelly goldfish.

The results were rather futile though.

"Hey look this is like Chemistry/Geography"

It was raining that day so the fields were rather muddy and we had to wear plastic bags over our shoes it was sucha sight to behold. I think it's so funnoi.

Initially I was like, what and why the hell are we here for looking stupid in plastic bag shoes but it turned out that we were there to pick kiwi fruits. Was surprisingly fun though.

Armed with a plastic bag eh.

And there was lunch.

Stella always looks so FUNNY!

An ASS would be glad to see this.

WE WENT FISHING AT THE LUNCH AREA AND THE WIND WAS HELLA STRONG 'CAUSE THERE WAS A TYPHOON IN HAIMEN THAT DAY. I LOVE THE COLD WEATHER + WIND IT MAKES ME HAPPPPPY.(:

Group 8 gearing up for fishing!

Jiahui! With an earthworm in case you didn't notice.

Srsly hate waiting damnit.

Benfoo and HsiuChen

THEN JUNE AND FANDI HOOKED UP A FISH (!!!)

In all our group caught 5 fish if my memory didn't fail me? I caught two like hello miracle. It was so fun though!(:
The fish became dinner.

We had like srsly boring stuffs as well. For example, THE series of lectures.